school's becoming more boring day by day... sigh. i've been in a kinda bad mood lately. wanna just scream my heart out, but at the same time i just want to break down and cry. i wish he was still here... to help me get over all this. i'm like, venting my frustration by making those paper clip hearts out of the coloured paper clips. i've been working through like, a box a day. bruises on my index fingers and thumbs. i just feel hopeless in my heart. ... ...ARGH!
"everywhere i turn, i hurt someone. but there's nothing i can say to change the things i've done. of all the things i hid from you i can't hide the shame. and i pray someday someone will come and take away the pain... i can't face another day. tell me where did i go wrong. everyone i loved, they're all gone. i'd do anything so differently, but i can't turn back the time. there's no shelter from this storm inside of me. there's no way out of this dark place. i know i can't be free."
if you feel like leaving, i'm not gonna beg you to stay; it's that same unfeeling aura you're giving me, same as that time. at least tell me what i did wrong. i don't know what to do, i'm going out of my mind.; i think about your beauty, it makes me weak. it's driving me so crazy.
© 2008. "some things cannot be changed... accept your fate" 4:39 AM |