today i had to go to the hospital. didn't even finish my 2.4km run lah. after the third lap, i couldn't inhale and my chest was hurting like shit, i started crying. so muzfirah brought me to ms suriani, who alerted mr mark. He told Kamini to bring me to the water cooler then walk in the shade for abit.
But i barely drank anything cos I was gasping my life away. then mr mark told me to go to the office. i was like, gasping for air all the way back to school from SP. everyone was like, 'take a deep breath and relax' i wanted to scream, 'ARE YA BLIND!? I CAN BARELY BREATHE AND YA WANT ME TO TAKE A DEEP BREATH!?!?' but of course, i couldn't breathe, therefore, couldn't talk, let alone scream.
dad picked me up from school, took a cab down to National University Hospital, emergency room. i was pale, gasping for air. Doctor checked me, took x-rays. He said that my heart was stressed and was practically shutting some of my body fuctions down. lungs and heart were not strong enough to sustain the run. he asked if i was stressed about anything, other than studies. I lied and said no. he gave me some medicine to clear the breathing passage, said it would help to relax the heart and lungs.
so for the next five days, i can't have anything spicy, no COFFEE either!
If I have shortage breathing again, i need to get sent back to the emergency room, where they'll hold me there in the hospital for a few days for observation.
i wish i would've died. end my misery. maybe i'll die soon, then you'll be happy too.
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